What an amazing week!

We have had a few new developments this month. We learned about a month ago that is was very important to our birth mother that she and I actually meet before the big day in July. GULP! I decided to look at this whole trip as something I could do for her, to make her more at peace with her decisions. After Michael and I talked about it we decided I would make the trip, without question and whatever happens, happens. We decided to make a girl trip out of it. My mom and Brennan flew down with me and we had time to swim and of course, go to Downtown Disney (one of Brennan's favorite places). It seems like the day we would finally meet came so quickly. She and I spent the day going to a doctor's appt, ultrasound and lunch. I got to watch the baby in action on the ultrasound. Technology is amazing, she was blinking her eyes! In the end, I got so much more out of the day! I really thought I was doing this for her...well, it affected me so much more than I thought it would. I met our birth mother! Now keep in mind, the entire day felt very surreal. I felt like I was watching someone else's life and story unfold. I am so glad I met her. Just to get a glimpse of who this little person will be in a few years. I really enjoyed it so much more than I could have ever imagined. We will be very blessed to have this precious child have her outgoing personality. But, in the end, it is her decision. We are all at peace with this entire situation. There was a period of time when I let "all the questions" consume me. But, God knows how this story is going to unfold. He already knows how this will end and if this is the child we end up with. He knows all this! If we were to let all the negative thoughts consume our lives, we would be miserable and it would in NO WAY affect the outcome. I could worry all day, every day, but in the end it is her decision....not ours! I am praying for peace for this mother. She is in a hard place in her life and is ready for this to be behind her. It breaks my heart for what she is going through (not because this could be our child, but because she is another human being in a bad place in her life).

Time has flown by SO INCREDIBLY FAST!!! I was worried in the beginning that I would be watching the clock and crossing off the days. Now, I wish time could just stop for a bit and let us catch our breath.